Right now in life, I have none of either. Cruz has completely become dependent on the boob to fall asleep and to stay asleep. Cash was the same way, and he didnt end up sleeping through the night (or for more than 2-3 hours at a time rather) until he was 14 months old. It was horrible, and a lot of times it was only 45 minute stretches of sleep. I went into a deep deep depression. I for sure did not want to relive the experience with Cruz but it looks like Ive brought us down the same exhausting, sleepless path. Now I have to get out of it but HOW is the question.

During the day his naps only last 30-45 minutes. I cant get a dang thing done during that short of a nap. Or maybe only the necessities but no me time at all, no time to read, hop on the computer and if I do its not enough time to really indulge for more than a minute. Then at night he continues to wake 30-45 minutes after I put him down. At that point my only option is to either lay with him till he falls back asleep or bring him to the living room where he sleeps on my lap so I can watch a little tv, since it is the only time I get a chance to do that either.  

I start to feel sorry for myself, then I feel guilty for wanting needing space. I know that it would be tremendously better for all of us if I and little man were sleeping better and if I had a time I could count on that was just for me. Even just an hour or two in the night for me to spend with hubby. I dont want to wait till 12, 14, 22 months before he sleeps right. Ive been researching. I bought a book the other day that I read was number one rated, “Sleepeasy Solutions” but it turns out its the “controlled, cry it out” method. Not what I was expecting and not what Im ready to do……….just yet. So now what? “Pantly pull off” method, I just feel like he is far to stubborn for this. I dont know what to do. I know it will only last for so long but still, Id like to enjoy this time a little more than is possible to do completely sleep deprived on both of our ends. It pains me to see my baby so tired, and Im failing him, I feel. What to do? I just dont know. Any advice?